Short poem: Atonement

To be called weird, How does that make me feel.
Like a thank you card that was never sealed.
What goes through my mind through the day.
It really doesn't matter, People don't realize what they say.
To be able to overcome, to be able to move on.
Living in a place like this, I rather be gone.
Where to look next, Running to the goal line.
Things right now aren't looking too fine.
I wonder if I can live with making a certain choice.
What will lead me? Listening to God's voice.
Staying here, filled up with confusion and fear.
Where is everyone, Is anyone here.
Guess it is up to me to find my own way.
Atonement for the wrong I've done,
A good way to start the day.

A short time, A short poem.

A man is there to find his way.
There will people to tell him what to say.
If he loves a woman, treat her with respect
Don’t be greedy or else you will feel regret.
What wrong with the way things are.
To feel love, you can go far.
To cheat on someone, why break it apart?
In the end, It just not worth your time.
Our hearts were together, Thinking everything was fine.
To be tired of someone, showing no interest.
You were just using them so you could finish.
Feeling bad about what you have done.
Will you tell the truth or start to run.

Wats In My Head

Break away from the bad .
Life is far from being sad.
Parents that yell and scream.
Why are people so mean.
Do the kids meaning anything.
Not knowing the potential they bring.
Why do i get blamed for things
i didn't do.
Being used like a screw.
Twisting me until all the life is gone
All i can do is get out and run.
Leaving it all behind.
Turning to someone kind.
Give you something to eat.
some clothes to keep you warm.
I look for God.
with a silent nod i find him.
I am not a loser with no dream
That dream is more than what it seems.
I feel that warmth from the cat.
The squirrel is happy on his back.
Grinning and squeaking.
Jumping and singing.
It fun to imagine what lies ahead
Be yourself and keep your head cool.

Fall 09 -Saa Hajime you ka :)

Summer is Over
School begins again.
Time go back and see friends.
New people and new faces.
All Meeting at that familiar place.
College is the next step.
Not looking back wondering what's next.
Will things be the same.
Will my head be hung in shame.
Who know what tomorrow is .
Just will have to the best of it.
Classes are no longer easy.
Stomach feels Queasy.
We go on .
Remembering How far we come.
How much we sacrifice.
To come to know ourselves.
and to remember the good and nothing else.

Path for the Patience

I am walking, walking where?
I feel cold. Does anyone care.
Families that come together in the night.
Not Giving up without a fight.
No pain, worries or doubts.
That is why God gave us a mouth.
To be here right now is a gift.
No one appreciates it, that selfish
Am I am to cross the divide.
Who knows what happens, it’s a surprise.
Music that keep me sane.
Keep it going ,playing my game.
School is filling my head up.
Like pouring water into cup.
Clear the mind.
Think, don’t waste time.
Defend Yourself
Think about others and nothing else.
Reading helps to understand.
People have fallen,
Be Brave and take stand.
Living alone isn’t easy.
The tight restraint that binds me.
Friendships that last forever.
With them behind you, its now or never.
A cat strays away from its cruel master.
Running far, its hearts beats faster.
In front lies a squirrel in a tree.
Looking down below.
He has never seen such beauty.
He takes a chance to be kind.
It swirl in his mind.
Walking down the line.
The cat is smiling.
It is no longer suffering.
To be happy is a good feeling to have.
let not your mind be consumed with wrath.
Let sun shine and live no lie.
For now, just look up at the sky.

Visions

In a dream I see a reality
Of a Man who feels accomplished
He sigh heavily- saying “I did it!”
He walks around listening to LP
His favorite song goes on and on.
But suddenly he find himself lost.
Body shaking, Heart Pounding.
Evil smiling in the distance.
He runs and keeps going
Not looking back at anything .
He falls to the ground
With little life he has left, He prays.
For being here, his friends, His girlfriend.
His heart beats slowly, closing his eyes.
Goodbye.

A week later.

The man is dressed in black,
Eyes shut and arms crossed.
A church full of mourning.
Crying, shouting, cursing, falling.
People go back and forth
Wondering why did that man leave them.
Girlfriend holds him close
Nothing changes
Friends say their lines
With tear in the eyes
Pain in their hearts.
Its too much
Goes black

Now….
Huh?!
Was it all dream or was it the future.
The man has yet to realize his potential
To do things that will take him far.
Avoid the negative and to help those
Who have nothing.
Risk it all or fall down.
With people with no direction.
Getting Lost and Not thinking
The road is long but hey
Keep the smirk going
Friends encourage and hold on
People who don’t know, can’t talk
Bringing you down.
They made their choice
Its your turn now.

A Man Weeps

The day rises, a man weeps
Is it that he feel so weak.
To go out each day.
Looking Down with nothing to say.
Where are his friends he ask.
Being at peace is not an easy task.
The devil is running around me in circles
Confusing me and trying to consume.
I wish I had a room.
But I can’t stay in there forever.
I would like to feel that nice weather.
Knowing that going forward is the only path.
I would like to be positive and not an ass.
I know God has led me here.
To be able to live for 21 years
I am grateful for my cat and my group.
Close like letters in the alphabet soup.
Spelling things like I am me.
To show to society that I am somebody.
Pain will come and go, It hurts.
Holding in like gas, it will get worse.
Playing games listen to a song.
Someone come to you, what is wrong.
Nothing I say. In the end, It doesn’t matter.
From the inside something shatters.
Leaving it all behind me,
I given up on try to please others.
I feel I like have somewhere I belong.
I am a Ghost but yet I feel alive
because in life, you make it simpler by not living a lie.
One life to live, all that is.
Your life choose how you live.
To go out in to world each day.
To be able to learn, to see what lies within.
That is what makes you unique from them.